Merry Christmas, babies

Thinking of both of you today. Miss you both so much.

We are spending time with family again today. I sure wish you were here to join us. Tonight we will have dinner and play board and card games. Its a fun way to end Christmas.

I love you both so much and cant wait until the Christmas I see you again.

BIG HUGS TO YOU!!

Love, Dad

Missing you

I cant help but remember it has been exactly 5 years since I held you in my arms and told you I love you.

I cant wait to do it again.

I love you both so much.

Happy Sweet 16, Baby Girl!

Happy Sweet 16! 

I hope the card that I sent you didn't get lost in the mail.

I cant believe it was 16 years ago that I held you in my arms and fell in love with you. You were instantly so precious to me, and you still are. I couldn't believe how beautiful you were and how much potential you were blessed with. You and Ethan have always been the greatest gift from God and I am so grateful for you both.

I look at your pictures every day. There's so much I want to talk to  you about; school, cars, guys... about how you keep going even when your heart is breaking. I know when you're in high school that it can feel like the end of the world when something goes wrong, but it's not. Life is full of joy, but we have to have dark to see the light of the stars. Surround yourself with people who make you smile and who love you just as you are, on good days and bad days.

I keep praying that the Lord continues to protect you and bless you with wisdom and that you continue to grow into the wonderful woman you were always intended to be. Be safe on the roads, make good choices, and don't be afraid to be independent. That's how you learn to be an adult.

I hope your birthday dreams and wishes came true. I cant wait until you and I can spend birthdays together! For now, be great, enjoy school, and have fun with your friends!

I love you. I mean that with every piece of my soul.

With hope and love,
Dad

Happy 13th Birthday!

Happy birthday, buddy. I hope you had a great day. As always, you were on my mind. I hope you were able to receive the card I sent you.

I miss you so much. I've wondered what you have been up to and what kind of hobbies you have now. Your Uncle Danny and I have been fishing. We cant wait to take you out on the boat. We dont catch very much (I ALWAYS catch more than he does!) but it is nice spending time with him and making memories.

You have a new cousin and another one on the way. There is so much Eller family that misses you and cant wait to meet you and get to know you!

Give your sister a big hug from me. I love you so much and cant wait until the day when we can go fishing together and start making memories of our own again. Its coming soon. Call me any time you want.

I love you so much, son. You and your sister are so precious to me.

With love and hope,

Dad

Merry Christmas 2015

Merry Christmas! I hope you had a wonderful Christmas!

I thought about you both all day long and wondered what kinds of things you had hoped to find under the tree when you woke up this morning. 

I cooked a giant breakfast. Thats what I like to do for Christmas. I made pancakes and biscuits and we all sat around the table and talked. 

I'm wondering about Macaylee learning to drive! Don't be nervous. One day it will be as natural as breathing in and out. You will be a good driver! I know it. It is a big responsibility to drive a car, but I know that you know that and will take care.

I was really proud of your grades when I saw your report cards! So smart, both of you. I am not surprised at all.

I wonder all the time about you both and how you both are. We are closer than ever to seeing one another again, and I cant wait! So much will change in 2016! It is going to be a great year, just wait and see.

I love you both so much! I'm sending you big bear hugs right now! I hold you in my heart until I hold you in my arms again!

With all my hope and love,

Dad

I miss you guys

Hi Ethan and Macaylee!

 I hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I just got back from spending Thanksgiving in Washington DC with Magen's family. We went to two Smithsonian museums. I thought about you two and wondered what you would have liked the best. I loved the cars and trains in the Transportation Hall. We saw dinosaurs, mummies, and a dusty Hope diamond..... and lots and lots of people! I even got to see the original Kermit the Frog and C3P0 from Star Wars. 

There was a giant stuffed Grizley bear, too! I couldnt believe how big its paws were. I would NOT like to snuggle with a real one at night! There was a butterfly hall where you could walk through a butterfly garden. Butterflies would land right on you and you had to be careful that one didnt try to hitchhike out on your clothes when you left.

I got to see the Washington monument and we rode the metro subway, which was neat. It was the first time I ever rode a train.

Oh, and I have a beard now! I havent shaved since before Halloween. I wonder if you two would like it or want me to shave it? Maybe that's why I liked the Grizzly bear so much... because I look like one now! Ha!

I wanted you to know how thankful I am that you two are in the world. I miss you and I cant wait to see you soon. I love you both so much! 

Be good and keep being smart in school. I am praying for you every day! Anytime you feel sad or lonely, remember that there is NOTHING in this world that would make me stop loving you and I wish I was giving you a big giant bear hug! I love you both so much!

Hugs, kisses, and hope!

Dad

Happy 15th Birthday, Macaylee!!

I have been thinking about you all day! I hope you got the two cards I sent. You may not have seen it, but those two cards were FULL of hugs and kisses!! 

15! So much is going to happen in the next year! Don't be afraid of change. Changes are good, even the changes that scare or worry you. 

I am always here for you, even though you may not always know that. I pray for you every day. You were uniquly created by God, a wonderful master piece, and I completely adore you.

No matter how grown you get, you will ALWAYS be my Tater Butt and my little Princess. I cant wait until we spend your birthdays together! We are getting closer and closer to that time! 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Baby. Your daddy loves you SO much!!

love and hope,

Dad